I have been wanting to update for a long time now, but I haven’t known where to start or even what to say. So many things have changed in my life and it’s been a difficult summer. I’m taking lots of hits and I’ve barely had the energy to function on a day-to-day basis, much less write blog posts that require effort!
Fortunately, while my life hasn’t necessarily gotten easier, I believe I’m through the worst of it and I’m in a better place emotionally than I was a couple of months ago. “Better” is a relative term, so I’m really not where I’d like to be, but I’m well enough to try to write again. Or, if I’m not truly well, at least I’ve given up on caring for now and either way it results in me sitting down, typing words on a laptop, so it works.
My main reason for avoiding updates on my life is that the emotional baggage is just too big to unpack right now. I know where I could start but I don’t think I have the energy to spend on it. Perhaps I can unpack a little at a time; small chunks are easier to chew.
For now: I’m alive, and trying to find out how to really live as well. Some days all I can do is exist.