The past month or so of my life has been crazy, stressful, and heartbreaking. Honestly, the entire past 6 months have been hard on me with one challenge after another and often many at the same time. But the biggest changes came only recently. I wasn’t expecting them. I didn’t want them. I fought so hard to hold onto what I was losing. I believed then and still believe now that this wasn’t a good thing that happened and I do wish it wouldn’t have.
BUT. Some amazing and wonderful lessons were taught to me and I have found a peace and joy I’ve never felt before. I am stronger now and I can truly be thankful to God for letting me break so I would finally turn myself over to him for healing.
I’m still struggling. I’m still sad. I haven’t finished grieving just yet and I’m not sure when I will. But I’m looking forward, not backward, and I truly believe good things await me even if I don’t know what they are yet.