That’s how I feel when I realize I’ve fallen into the trap that is a constant temptation for me: not finishing what I start. I know everyone struggles with this to some degree, but I also know that it’s a particular weakness for my personality type (ie, Sanguine/High I personality from Personality Plus/DISC). I get really excited about starting new things, and enjoy the satisfaction of focusing on a project and getting things done up until the novelty wears off. After that, it’s all too easy to get distracted by the next fun thing and to leave a trail of half-finished projects behind me.
Right now, on the last day of January, I’ve taken a look at some of the things I started at the beginning of the month and genuinely thought I’d been doing well with. It’s frustrating to see the last time I messaged so-and-so was on January 6th, not just a week ago like I thought. And I barely completed 2 of the Blogging 101 assignments, and have failed to regularly post to my blog. I have to email pictures to my grandma like I said I would, mail a picture to a friend that I promised a couple of months ago, and I’m just now getting around to cleaning off all the bedding and the mattresses in my/my brother’s room that have been getting cluttered with junk since he got sick on his bed on Christmas Eve.
The temptation for me is to berate myself for “sucking” at life, and give up on trying because I’ll get to it later anyway. Fortunately, I’ve been surrounding myself with leadership-minded individuals and resources for the past couple of years, with a focus on personal development that’s helped me become aware of my weaknesses and has provided me with methods to turn them into strengths.
So, I’m back. I’m getting stuff done. I may falter and fall off the wagon again, but I’ll keep picking up again until I’m better at stopping the distraction cycle before it gets started. Quitting isn’t an option for me anymore.